But 2 days in, and I was dragging. My predetermined sacrifices seemed meaningless, and I found myself starting at my list of penances, at a standstill and unable to continue.
And so I stopped.
I sat with the Lord and explained to Him where I was. I asked Him to show me where I needed to go next.
The thing is, when you ask God something like that, He answers. But it's always HIS timing.
And so it happened that it was just last night that I came to realize what my Lent is supposed to be. This year, the Lord doesn't want fireworks from me, but simply my steadily burning candle of faith. And as pathetic as that makes me feel, I know that's the right answer.
As I look forward to the rest of today, the last day of classes before a much-needed spring break, I also look forward to a new outlook on Allison's Lent 2015. Because we still have 4 weeks to go, folks. God's not done teaching me yet.