These two weeks, guys. They were the weeks to end all weeks (remind me during Easter that I said this, and I can laugh about it then). I've been through 9 days of classes and received all my assignments for the semester .... over 1400 pages to read, 60+ pages to write, and multiple presentations to give. Yoikes.
But somewhere between all the assignments and to-do lists, I have learned so much about myself during these first two weeks of school.
I've learned the importance of my household sisters, and what a blessing it is to flop down on the floor with them to ask "how are you?" and end up talking for 2 hours.
I've learned (again) that I am capable of leadership and that it's ok for me to accept that.
I've learned that a supportive thesis advisor is one of the greatest blessings of a senior's year.
I've learned that my school isn't perfect, and that "politics" are so. incredibly. stupid.
I've learned that sometimes, the necessary thing to do is to drive a half hour to Barnes & Noble, just to have extreme introvert time.
I've learned that honesty is always the best policy, and if there's a question of "Do I chance offending him/her and have the conversation?", the answer is usually yes, have the conversation.
I've learned that it's acceptable to not be ok 100% of the time, and that it's alright to tell friends when you're having a rough day. I've learned that sometimes saying something is the hardest thing to do, but sometimes, staying quiet is harder.
I've learned that sometimes, the Lord piles thing upon thing on your plate, just so you'll learn to trust in His ultimate, supreme goodness and plan.
I've learned that the Lord speaks through simplicity and calm, not drama and chaos. That He is interested in me as individual me and not in relation to the millions of other people on the planet. That He desires intimacy with me, through the sufferings that He allows me to endure, not because I've deserved it (because I haven't), but because I am unique, irreplaceable, and His own daughter. And that I cannot compare my journey to sanctity with the journeys of others, because in doing so, I place myself in danger of despair and confusion and drive myself further from the side of the Lord who only wants me to lean against Him in confidence.
Essentially, I can see that I am being shaped through the difficulties of this semester. And while I know that it won't be an easy journey over the next 8 months 'til graduation, I know that it will be a time of grace and love, if only I allow it to be.